Taking time

Today I took a walk with my 4 year old son on a local walking track. Normally when I go I do two laps around at a quick pace. Walking with a 4 year old you cant do that….they want to explore and ask questions about  and look at things that adults normally bypass as we rush around our busy lives. In slowing down and looking at the natural beauty that was around me I was able to appreciate more just where I was and to really take in how pretty of a scene it is. I hope you enjoy this view of my walk as much as I enjoyed taking it.

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Taking time

Today I took a walk with my 4 year old son on a local walking track. Normally when I go I do two laps around at a quick pace. Walking with a 4 year old you cant do that….they want to explore and ask questions about  and look at things that adults normally bypass as we rush around our busy lives. In slowing down and looking at the natural beauty that was around me I was able to appreciate more just where I was and to really take in how pretty of a scene it is. I hope you enjoy this view of my walk as much as I enjoyed taking it.

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What to do, what to do….

I have spent the last 4 months (roughly) in my first semester of nursing school. It’s been an enlightening, frustrating, mind numbing, sleepless nights, hours of studying and feeling like I disnt understand what was going on or what I was doing experience.  Now here I sit mere hours after my last final trying to figure out just what exactly I’m going to do with my life for the next 3 weeks. I’m discovering that as much as I disliked my books they became a part of me. I guess now I can spend time taking walks and trying to loose some of this extra weight I’ve gained. As much as I looked forward to this break I’m now offically ready for it to be over.

Nursing School is not for the faint of heart

In my life I’ve done a lot of things that I thought was hard. Nothing compares to being a first semester nursing student. I don’t really think it matters which path you take upon acceptance into a nursing program, there is nothing that can prepare you for the way your life will change. Sleepless nights, billions of dollars spent (it seems like) on note cards, books that weigh almost as much as you do, the impossible search in a small town for a bag, any bag with wheels so that you don’t have to carry the aforementioned books. It’s a lot!!! That’s not including the hours spent studying the constant need to take your books with you everywhere you go so that if you get a spare moment somewhere you can look up something or study a little more. The funny part is I LOVE it. It’s a struggle, I’m still trying to find my groove and figure out how it all works but I love it. I love the things I’m learning and I know that the end prize is way better than the current mental discomfort.

With all of that said I am sorry that I’ve neglected this blog for so long but I’m swimming in school. I will try to post more often even if it’s just a random picture but I will make no promises.

A time of solitude

When we moved back to Alabama I expected a period of adjustment and a few months of piece as all if my school transfer stuff took effect. I didn’t count on the heartbreak, loneliness, and feelings of utter helplessness that would come along with this move. Now here I am a few months after our move feeling alone. There are people all around who know me fairly well but there are still large homes in my heart and in my being. I’m learning now to stop depending so much on others and to reevaluate the things that are most important to me. I’m gushing some goals, setting some new ones and lowering the bar on others. Some people see a period of solitude as a good thing for the most part I guess it is but at the same time it REALLY SUCKS!!!! I’m use to being able to go and do on a whim and now I’m constricted and confined in what I am able to do and where I go. I’m trying to stay positive but I’m really unhappy in this stage of the cycle. I’m ready for this part to be over so I can get on with all the things I want to do with my life. Who knows maybe there’s some super wonderful reward on the other side that I’ve not even imagined right now I’m not seeing or feeling it though. I’m seeing all the trees and no forest while wondering how in the world I let myself get in this place to begin with.