I would like to take a moment out of my day to publicly say thank you for all that you have done. You have been my major support for 38 years and goodness knows I’ve put you in some interesting positions and done some less than stellar things to you but you’ve been a real trooper and hung in there with me. You’ve been kicked from the inside and outside, poorly supported or not supported at all, you’ve been poked, prodded, had your picture taken quite a few times and had needles put in you. All of this you have done with grace hard to find anywhere else on earth.
I can understand your frustration with me. You’ve never really asked me for much and yet I’ve chosen to ignore you for years unless you put up a major fuss and then I gave you just the minimum of what you needed to make sure that you were better. I guess our current situation is your way of saying enough is enough. I get it. You need a better mattress to sleep on, one that will offer more support, you would like for me to exercise more again to give you more support. It might also help if I would sit up straight and maybe not put so much stress and strain on you. Just one small problem though…… While you are having this temper tantrum I’m not able to do any of these things. Every time I think you’re just about done with this epic fit your having you let me know that you’re just at the beginning of your laundry list of complaints against me.
I want us to remain friends. I do need you, you’re central to my everyday life and well being. Without you I would just be a mess so can we please just get over this and go back to being friends? I promise this time I will be the very best friend that I can possibly be but I need for you to get better. This is a give and take relationship I can only give you as much as you are able to take and vice versa. I miss the good times we’ve had together and I’m looking forward to seeing you in top shape again.
Well I guess that’s about all I have to say for now. I’ll give you some time to think this over….please don’t take to long though. There’s a lot that needs to be done and we’ve got a long road ahead of us. The sooner we kiss and make up the sooner we can be a good fit again.
The rest of me
There is a lot that has changed or will be changing this month. Some changes brought joy others not so much but we’ve made it through. The last month has been an emotional roller coaster to say the least, but now I am in a place where I can look back and say some of it sucked rotten eggs but we’ve grown as a family. We are closer than we were because of the good and the bad. All the joy and tears in the world don’t amount to squat without people beside you who love you and truely have your best interest at heart. The other thing to be said for this last month….people can be surprising. Just because you think someone is in your corner doesn’t mean that they are, also friends and support can come from some of the unlikelest of places but just go with it. It’s better to have an unexpected true friend than an untrue false one. Change can be good even if at first it doesn’t seem or feel like it. Sometimes you need the change to shake you out of your comfort zone and spread your wings. It’s hard to soar if you’re cramped in a cage – my advice to myself in all this changing and rearranging of our lives is this although some of this is unpleasant it’s better to go with the flow than to become stagnate. Here’s to hoping whatever changes you are going through make you a better person and that you are able to find beauty in something everyday.
Sometimes life is hard. For some people it may be unbearably so but somehow we are given the strength, the will power and the ability to press on. Not every cloud has a silver lining, every day isn’t sunshine and roses but that doesn’t mean give up. Hold on for the cloud with the silver lining for it may contain your dreams, wait for the sunshine and roses for it makes up for the days of doom and gloom. The Bible says weeping may endure for the night but joy comes with the morning light. I know for a fact some of those nights are long and dark, you feel all alone but I’m here to tell you what you feel and what is true can be two totally diffrent things. Hang in there there are more people who care than you are giving credit to. Just because they aren’t in your face 24/7 doesn’t mean they aren’t watching, listening and praying. You are loved, cherished and cared for (about) if by no one else by me. God bless and let’s make it over the hump! Happy hump day 🙂