We’ve come to a fork in the road, which direction do we go? We can see the positives on both sides as well as the negatives and there’s not one single thing that seems to tip the scale in one direction or the other so what do we do at a time like this? Do we turn to friends or family to weight in with their input? Do we just carry on like we aren’t staring at this giant fork in front of us?
Here’s what we did….. We weighted, weighted and reweighed the decisions before us and went for the one that seemed the best for where we are now as a man, as a woman, as husband, wife, mom, dad, son and daughter. We looked at the things that were behind us and the road that we traveled that got us to this point we weighted THOSE decisions and made up our minds not to travel that same path. We decided to look at the other forks we’d come to and the choices right or wrong that we made from them and decided not to repeat our pasts.
The road we’ve chosen is from personal choice and from prior experience. Can I say we’ve made the right choice? Nope. Can I say we’ll know soon? Can’t say that either. What I can say is I’m excited to see where this new path leads and what will await us down the road. I know there will be other forks and I know none of the decisions that are made at those junctures are easy but I do know as long as we work together good or bad we’ll make it work and learn from the path we choose to take.
I am 38 which to most means I’m a grown up. I have responsibilities and people that I have to make sure I provide for but I’m not a grown up on the inside. I like to play and do super fun things with my kiddos, I like to keep myself young and not take myself to seriously. To my way of thinking the minute you start taking yourself super seriously and start putting yourself before others is the minute you start loosing your youth. I don’t ever want to get to a point where I can’t laugh at myself, stop learning or stop having fun…. In other words I don’t want to be a grown up. Yeah, it’s my label but its not my life. I’m still exploring just who I am and where I fit into this giant puzzle people call life. From what I’ve been told knowing where you fit in and finding your special niche is part of being grown up if that’s really a parameter I’m still just a kid. I’m still in college, still exploring where I wanna go and who I want to be. I want to be a nurse and maybe a hairstylist and maybe a make up artist and maybe a chef or a baker and…..and…….and….there are so many things to do be and explore I don’t want to be tied down to just one. Is that a sign of a grown up? Yeah I didn’t think so.
Maybe all of this is just to say being a grown up is a mental process. It’s what you think you are or believe yourself to be and right now today I declare I’m not a grown up!
After much thought, much talk and quite a bit of deliberation some decisions have been made. Some are good some are kind of iffy but we’ll play those by ear and hope for the best. The thing is though we reached these agreements together which for anyone who knows my husband and myself they will know that in and of itself is a big deal. Normally one makes a decision and the other goes along praying it doesn’t turn into a giant mess. I’m excited to see the outcome(s) of our new plans and I hope it all turns out as well as we think they will.
There’s been A LOT going on with school and home and now us getting ready to make a big move back south so I apologize for being done but y’all weren’t forgotten. Everyday I find things I want to take pictures of or share but finding time or more precisely making time is a scarce thing. I will work harder to bring little bits of me back to you.